BLAH.

this is a personal piece, but, i'm putting it up JUST TO TRY to convince a friend of mine to write the uneasiness out of her mind. I felt a hell of a lot better after I wrote it. I wrote it after dealing with a bout of frustration, because i'm going thru this thing where i like this person but i feel as if they cannot trust me because of the "way of the world". I am so patient, however, emotions building just HAD to come out, all of this stuff wasn't piled on by this person, but sitting there doing NOTHING about it would have led to be venting out on this person when they really did not deserve it. all the emotion building had to come out..... somewhere. better on paper or screen than on someone undeserving or deserving.... but, if a relationship's livelihood hangs in the balance, no need to spit fire at this person and burn the relationship, correct? Form your emotions into words, and your words into sentences, and your sentences into music, and your music into ART. It's venting time, I think. PURGE. Like I did.


blah at the world
and all who inhabit it.
all you little earthlings
with your poor disposition
and all your fucking flaws
and your selfish ways
and your little bitchy moods
and your OBVIOUS disdain for idiosyncracies
and your hate
and your butterfly effect
regarding emotions
AND YAWNING...
contagious, making me
susceptible
to your energy.
my dainty shell,
my permeable membrane
I'D like to call my psyche
feels tormented.
feels VULNERABLE.
Earthly anxiety
frustration
confusion
happiness
joy
benevolence
falls through my atmosphere like
beautiful streaks of ugly rocks on fire.
From a high concentration
to a low concentration, the
way of the world diffuses in
to my Martian Dragon lair
FUCKING IT UP.
My little world
has been cluttered
with these damn human emotions.
Ignoring them would be the Martian thing to do,
but
for the first time in a long time,
I feel.... human.
I hate it.
blah at you earthlings
with your family values
and your love
and your perseverance
and your remarkable abilities
and your diplomacy
and your sick-ass strive to perfection
and your ability to
draw a dream from air,
to ransack my lair,
envelop me,
challenge me,
love me,
and your contagious laughter
that makes me smile
and feel
like I AM of this world.
EARTH...


Dragon?
What an amazing contradiction,
is it even possible to be grounded
and level-headed
with all the mighty authoritative power
Earth dragons possess?
A cold lizard that has the ability to warm,
A SERPENT with ANGELic wings
A revered yet reclusive being
Just like humans.
Just like me.